Life update

So I'm not so good with this updating business . . .
I procrastinate with this, like other things like cleaning my apartment.

But life has been good. The Jets beat the Patriots on Sunday!! Prob the most awesome game ever! It honestly felt as good as winning the Superbowl already! We still have to play the Steelers to make it in, but now anything seems possible. The Patriots are our biggest rivals, so it was just awesome to beat them, especially after losing 45-3 last time. I'll be going home on Sunday to watch the game with my dad. If the Jets make it, I know that's the place I want to be . . . with my dad, the world's biggest and craziest Jet fan. He has Superbowl tickets contingent on the Jets making it, so I would not be able to celebrate with him then. It's been very exciting to follow the predictions for all the games, not that they mean anything. People still like to mock the Jets, but part of me likes it that way. Reminds me of the old days, pushes the fair weather fans away a little bit.

In other news, Nutrisystem has been working really well. I have to keep my mind on what goes into my mouth. Sometimes I get cravings, but it's been easier to push them aside. I've lost about 10 pounds now, which has been really amazing. I don't feel that different, but some of my pants don't fit, and I can now fit into pants that had grown tight on me. It's pretty awesome. I have to keep reminding myself that I will need to maintain this once I reach my ideal, and not resort back to my old portions. But now it feels good. Mom keeps telling me how proud she is, then lol she always manages to ask about Jdate, which is going no where right now. That's okay though.

It's been having Natalie, my college friend, living in Philly here. She came out for my med school friend Melissa's birthday on Saturday. I think she's getting used to my friends here, and their vulgarities. I get nervous that they can scare people away, or at least frighten them at first, but it's been pretty good. They make me laugh and happy so it's all that I need.

Day 4

So I'm getting into the diet thing. And now I'm getting to the "you were happier before" thoughts, and desires to binge on something. I don't hate the diet food per say, I just really want to put more food into my mouth. It's so hard to change your mindset. I've been really good so far, but thoughts always go to "well, now you have to do this forever or you'll gain all of your weight back." Something about it makes me cringe. Forever is a long time. And part of me wants to be able to eat as much as I want every meal. Even though it's not healthy, and will keep me at this weight. I'm not obese, just overweight. But I could be thinner. I know I've gained weight, during med school and even college. Maybe doing this diet for a long enough time will make me not have these excess cravings. Gum helps :) So does looking at my belly. I even lost 6 pounds in one week, but I don't know that I trust my scale. But I did lose something, I suppose. The pounds will be harder to lose as I go on.
I have gone to the gym yesterday and today, which is something too. It's so hard to get into the habit and so easy to fall out. I have experienced this so many times before. Maybe another successful weigh-in will help with motivation.
Right now, one day at time seems to be the way to think.

Nutrisystem

So today was sort of my first day on the Nutrisystem diet.
It all started when I was looking at the photo albums with my mom. There were pictures of me when I was 16. It's funny how at the time I didn't feel skinny or thin, but now I can see that I was. The whole "new year" thoughts started kicking in, and I thought about the Nutrisystem diet again. I've thought about it before, but always had reasons to not try. I think I'm afraid of failing it, or wanting to quit right away. I hate feeling hungry . . . I like to eat. Probably more than I should. I really don't eat many "bad foods", I just eat too much. So my hope is that after doing this diet for a while, I will start to feel full earlier and be able to eat less every meal. I also need to listen when I get the "full" signals from my body. I like to eat, so sometimes I keep eating when I am full, to either not waste food, or keep eating something that I like. Bad habits. Not healthy. So I am trying to change them.
So the food came yesteray, and I picked the box up today; definitely earlier than I expected. I was hoping it wouldn't come until Monday, so that I could have this weekend as a kind of last hurrah. Well, then I opened the box and got excited by all of the different foods to try and the possibilities waiting at the end of the 28 days. So since I had no plans for tonight, but I might want to eat out tomorrow, I decided that I would start tonight.
So I had salisbury steak with salad. It was good, a lot better than I thought it would be, considering that it's coming from a shelf-stable package. It was pretty filling too.

So in other exciting news, I got four free tickets to the Daily Show on February 17! I was on the Facebook during the day and saw the post for free tickets to the Show on the wall. So I responded quickly enough and got them! The more I think about it, the more excited I get! I know that the tickets are overbooked, so I will be sure to get there early. :D Yippee!