So I'm getting into the diet thing. And now I'm getting to the "you were happier before" thoughts, and desires to binge on something. I don't hate the diet food per say, I just really want to put more food into my mouth. It's so hard to change your mindset. I've been really good so far, but thoughts always go to "well, now you have to do this forever or you'll gain all of your weight back." Something about it makes me cringe. Forever is a long time. And part of me wants to be able to eat as much as I want every meal. Even though it's not healthy, and will keep me at this weight. I'm not obese, just overweight. But I could be thinner. I know I've gained weight, during med school and even college. Maybe doing this diet for a long enough time will make me not have these excess cravings. Gum helps :) So does looking at my belly. I even lost 6 pounds in one week, but I don't know that I trust my scale. But I did lose something, I suppose. The pounds will be harder to lose as I go on.
I have gone to the gym yesterday and today, which is something too. It's so hard to get into the habit and so easy to fall out. I have experienced this so many times before. Maybe another successful weigh-in will help with motivation.
Right now, one day at time seems to be the way to think.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Friday, January 7, 2011
Nutrisystem
So today was sort of my first day on the Nutrisystem diet.
It all started when I was looking at the photo albums with my mom. There were pictures of me when I was 16. It's funny how at the time I didn't feel skinny or thin, but now I can see that I was. The whole "new year" thoughts started kicking in, and I thought about the Nutrisystem diet again. I've thought about it before, but always had reasons to not try. I think I'm afraid of failing it, or wanting to quit right away. I hate feeling hungry . . . I like to eat. Probably more than I should. I really don't eat many "bad foods", I just eat too much. So my hope is that after doing this diet for a while, I will start to feel full earlier and be able to eat less every meal. I also need to listen when I get the "full" signals from my body. I like to eat, so sometimes I keep eating when I am full, to either not waste food, or keep eating something that I like. Bad habits. Not healthy. So I am trying to change them.
So the food came yesteray, and I picked the box up today; definitely earlier than I expected. I was hoping it wouldn't come until Monday, so that I could have this weekend as a kind of last hurrah. Well, then I opened the box and got excited by all of the different foods to try and the possibilities waiting at the end of the 28 days. So since I had no plans for tonight, but I might want to eat out tomorrow, I decided that I would start tonight.
So I had salisbury steak with salad. It was good, a lot better than I thought it would be, considering that it's coming from a shelf-stable package. It was pretty filling too.
So in other exciting news, I got four free tickets to the Daily Show on February 17! I was on the Facebook during the day and saw the post for free tickets to the Show on the wall. So I responded quickly enough and got them! The more I think about it, the more excited I get! I know that the tickets are overbooked, so I will be sure to get there early. :D Yippee!
It all started when I was looking at the photo albums with my mom. There were pictures of me when I was 16. It's funny how at the time I didn't feel skinny or thin, but now I can see that I was. The whole "new year" thoughts started kicking in, and I thought about the Nutrisystem diet again. I've thought about it before, but always had reasons to not try. I think I'm afraid of failing it, or wanting to quit right away. I hate feeling hungry . . . I like to eat. Probably more than I should. I really don't eat many "bad foods", I just eat too much. So my hope is that after doing this diet for a while, I will start to feel full earlier and be able to eat less every meal. I also need to listen when I get the "full" signals from my body. I like to eat, so sometimes I keep eating when I am full, to either not waste food, or keep eating something that I like. Bad habits. Not healthy. So I am trying to change them.
So the food came yesteray, and I picked the box up today; definitely earlier than I expected. I was hoping it wouldn't come until Monday, so that I could have this weekend as a kind of last hurrah. Well, then I opened the box and got excited by all of the different foods to try and the possibilities waiting at the end of the 28 days. So since I had no plans for tonight, but I might want to eat out tomorrow, I decided that I would start tonight.
So I had salisbury steak with salad. It was good, a lot better than I thought it would be, considering that it's coming from a shelf-stable package. It was pretty filling too.
So in other exciting news, I got four free tickets to the Daily Show on February 17! I was on the Facebook during the day and saw the post for free tickets to the Show on the wall. So I responded quickly enough and got them! The more I think about it, the more excited I get! I know that the tickets are overbooked, so I will be sure to get there early. :D Yippee!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
2011
Happy 2011! And happy new blog!
I don't know what this will become. I just felt like maybe if I document my life, it will be useful in the future. Maybe I will meet someone and tell the story. Maybe it will help me collect my thoughts.
So let me introduce myself. I am Laura J. I am 25, I currently live in Pennsylvania. I am in my fourth and last (TG!) year of medical school. I am currently almost finished interviewing for pediatric residency positions in the Northeast. This part of my life isn't too difficult, but it was rough when I started, and it will be rough again when I start residency. Let's not get too far ahead of myself here.
I am Jewish. I am the oldest of 3 children (1 sister. 1 brother.) In my free time, I like to knit, hang out with my friends and family, veg in front of the computer and read. I like the NY Jets (heading to the playoffs! yippee), Seinfeld, Facebook.
I will tell more about myself as time goes on I'm sure. I don't know if anyone will read this. So right now, its for me.
Laura J
I don't know what this will become. I just felt like maybe if I document my life, it will be useful in the future. Maybe I will meet someone and tell the story. Maybe it will help me collect my thoughts.
So let me introduce myself. I am Laura J. I am 25, I currently live in Pennsylvania. I am in my fourth and last (TG!) year of medical school. I am currently almost finished interviewing for pediatric residency positions in the Northeast. This part of my life isn't too difficult, but it was rough when I started, and it will be rough again when I start residency. Let's not get too far ahead of myself here.
I am Jewish. I am the oldest of 3 children (1 sister. 1 brother.) In my free time, I like to knit, hang out with my friends and family, veg in front of the computer and read. I like the NY Jets (heading to the playoffs! yippee), Seinfeld, Facebook.
I will tell more about myself as time goes on I'm sure. I don't know if anyone will read this. So right now, its for me.
Laura J
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